Church

{Rylee watching people paint during worship}

{Me and Rylee before church started}

{Aj soaking in the presence of God}

We went to a new church tonight. I had heard from some friends that there was going to be a special speaker coming to speak from the Bethel Church. And boy oh boy have I always wanted to go to that church. I have not made it down to them yet. So I was pretty excited when I heard that they were in town. 

As a lot of you know who have been reading my blog I have been working on giving my dreams and desires to God for having more kids. I want to be in a spot where I am content with the blessings he has given me now. And I feel like I am getting closer and closer to that spot. But I will openly admit I struggle with it! I wish so badly that I did not. I want so badly to just be happy with where I am at now. I have so many reason to be happy!! So when I heard that a prophetic guy was coming my first thought of course was "Hey maybe he can tell me if I am going to have more kids". I guess I am just that desperate at times. 

What I want from God is for him to tell me straight up YES you are going to have more kids....or.... NO you are not. I just really want a yes or no. But I know that is not how God usually works. But I still always hope for that!! So that was my intentions going tonight. As we were driving there I really felt like God was telling me..."Amy... I have given you words of encouragement. I have told you where your focus needs to be right now. That is ALL you need". So once we got to church I felt like I had calmed down and was ready to just enjoy the night. I was still hoping that I would have had one of those cool moments when the  preacher calls out your story, or calls out your name, or describes what you are wearing, and then gives that amazing word from God. I always hope for that when ever there is a special speaker. 

But I KNOW that God does have AMAZING things instore for me!! And I KNOW that he has good plans for me. Plans to prosper and not to harm me. I KNOW these things!! And I am so thankful that I do!! He is such a good God and that is were I am going to keep my eyes at. 

I will say that we had a wonderful time. We had to leave early since Aj was really tired (That is what happens when a man works super duper hard for his wife and daughter. He worked 60 hours this week. CRAZY!!) I LOVED watching Rylee worship. I love watching her dance, and sing, and clap for the Lord. They also had prophetic art tonight. And I LOVE LOVE LOVE that kind of stuff. I am always amazed at the talents God has blessed people with. I personally really enjoy painting. I am not amazing by any standards. But someday I would love to paint a piece for the Lord during a worship service. Maybe someday I will. 

I am so glad that we went tonight. And I am so thankful for a God who loves us unconditionally. Even when we don't deserve it. He is just that GOOD!